Astrid is the only woman i will ever love. I've suspected this for a long time (17 years) but it has only really just hit me, ripped my head off, reduced my soul to tiny little pieces -- all of which are devoted to her. I've suspected it for a long time, but now i know for sure.
And yet we are impossible. If we lived together we would drive each other crazy.
But there will never be anyone else. I am resigned to my fate: love is love. I have it.